Here we are…

When I started this blog several years ago I wanted to share insights into a normal Christian life as one who professes to be a follower of Jesus Christ. And I still am! But one doesn’t have to look very hard to see that the world is a different place now, even two years later.

To be honest with you, I’m alarmed. I’ll tell you a little story about something that happened on February 22nd (2/22) of this year.

First, let me say about 3 weeks before that I wrote 2/22 in my journal and I still don’t know why. I saw it after the fact.

Well February 22 was the super blood wolf moon or something like that. I always have the head of my bed at the window because I like to look at the stars when I fall asleep. That night the moon was SUPER bright but it was a little too far to the side and I couldn’t enjoy it that much as I fell asleep.

At around 3am I woke up, which isn’t unusual, and I saw the moon beam directly lighting up my pillow like a spotlight. My first thought was, “Cool!” My next thought wasn’t so great as I slowly began to have this feeling of HEAVY DREAD. I couldn’t reason why I was feeling like that for a few minutes and then the thought hit me: “It’s starting!” I was suddenly WIDE AWAKE. I sat up in bed and grabbed my journal.

It felt like God’s wrath was descending from on high and time was literally up… Completely up! I remember feeling very very scared and sorrowful. I’ve lived my life as devoted to Him as best I possibly could and I was realizing what I had been doing wasn’t enough! I felt totally forsaken!! I started to panic, now knowing there was nothing more I could do.

There are some frightening entries and frantic scribbles on the pages of my journal to testify what I knew to be true. It was as if the Lord had lifted His hand of protection from the earth.

Slowly the feeling began to subside and I realized it was just a warning!

You are likely seeing all the posts and videos telling people to Get Ready! And this one is no different. I can feel it building in my spirit day by day, a little stronger and more dire every time I wake up. I have repented of everything I can think of.

Yes, we serve a awesome God! Yes, I know He tells us not to fear. And I wouldn’t necessarily describe what I felt as fear but as dread… Dread at what the world is going to be facing.

Do with this what you want. I’m telling you it was REAL. My eyes are more wide open because of that experience, that’s for sure.

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Don’t be caught sleeping.

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I woke up this morning at 4:50 am hearing a loud whisper in my ear, “Mom!” (This is weird because yesterday I posted how I was awakened with my name being spoken.)    As of this writing, I am living with my daughter while I build a small residence on some vacant land. But she wasn’t in the room. I just recently moved back to the town where my two sons have been living, but they weren’t in my room either. I also have connected with a young man, who was orphaned as a youth, who is running an orphanage in Uganda and he calls me Mom, but obviously he wasn’t in my room either.

I considered myself a Mom first, and then a ________ (fill in the blank: writer, sister, friend, partner, etc.). But even more than a mom I treasure my standing with God. I am a child of God and I take pains to spend as much time with Him as possible, then my kids and grandkids. At 5 am, I got to thinking how different my life was a year ago. I was living somewhere else, in a life that was somewhat superficial, going about my days but wishing I was just alone with the Lord much, much more than I was.

When the Lord called my name on 10/6/17, He got my attention. On 1/3/18, He really woke me up. I’ll post about that conversation with Him later, but on this day I was sleeping spiritually and He had had enough. It was time to wake the sleeper. I believe that is what He is doing in the world today, waking the sleepers.

God is our Father. He created us. We can’t ignore that. Science teaching evolution doesn’t change it and people ignoring God doesn’t change it. He is the One we will all be going to see when this is over. We will stand in front of Him and KNOW Him as the Father, Brother, Savior, and Friend…if we humble ourselves and accept Him as He is.

There are dear ones I’ve known that have completely turned away from Him. I’ve prayed and counseled and taught and reasoned, all in the Holy Spirit’s leading, but to no avail. They profess to be a follower of Christ but no evidence of the fruits of the Spirit or no change to their lifestyle. That’s His business now.

So, the sleeping people? Some are partially asleep and a whisper is all it takes to wake them. Some are fully asleep and it takes a shout. Some are drunk on the world and it takes a lot of shaking. Some may not wake up at all.

We are reminded that “You are all the children of light, and the children of the day: we are not of the night, nor of darkness. Therefore let us not sleep, as do others; but let us watch and be sober. For they that sleep sleep in the night; and they that be drunken are drunken in the night. But let us, who are of the day, be sober, putting on the breastplate of faith and love; and for an helmet, the hope of salvation.” 1 Thessalonians 5:5-8

I want to be fully awake when the Voice, Trumpet, Shaking, and Roaring comes.

I want to be like the wise virgins who woke readily with full oil in their lamps (Matthew 25:5). I want to heed Mark 13:35-36 “Watch you therefore: for you know not when the master of the house comes, at even, or at midnight, or at the cock-crowing, or in the morning: Lest coming suddenly he find you sleeping.

 

 

Though It Tarry…Still, be Ready…

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So, as I alluded to in my last post, things really took off spiritually in October of 2017. On the night of October 6, 2017, as I was dozing off, I distinctly heard my name spoken out loud, “Lisa!” and the date “10 6 17.” I had opened to Hebrews 10:37 the night before, the first verse I recorded in months: “For yet a little while, and he that shall come will come, and will not tarry.” I opened my phone app and set the lighting on low so as to not wake my husband, recalling the familiar verse the Lord had shown me decades earlier when I was a new Christian:

“And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain on tables, that he may run that reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” Habakkuk 2:2-3

The next morning on 10/7/17 I awoke with the lyrics to Pink’s song going through my head: “Are you ready? I am ready.” Now, I don’t listen to pop music and Pink is okay as an artist but since I don’t tune any of that into my radio and just hear it in passing in a store or somewhere, I thought it was unusual so I wrote it down.

After I wrote that down I paused to think what this all might mean. The verses were too interrelated, and those lyrics! Ready for what? Then immediately the lyrics to this song started to play in my head: “Holy Spirit, You are welcome here, come flood this place and fill the atmosphere. Your glory God is what my heart longs for, to be overcome with Your presence, Lord!”

What would be to come in the coming months was exactly that…feeling the presence of the Lord Jesus come in to me as I’ve never felt before. Such a different level of relationship exists than the churchy one I’ve always known! In my years past, I was somewhat of an intercessor and could feel the Holy Spirit moving in those times, and I could still feel the Holy Spirit as a born again Christian, but I had never felt the Presence of the Lord Jesus before. Ever. But somehow I knew the One who called my name was not Jesus or the Holy Spirit, but the Father Himself.

Where have I been??

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Life as a Christian is so unpredictable. I noticed I last posted in 2016, which was right before I started a new full time job and life got really crazy busy. I love writing, I still journal daily. But after the new job then it was four moves and countless other things. Sometimes life gets busy and we just get caught up in it and next thing you know its a couple of years later!

I don’t tell you this because I feel that I need excuses. I tell you this because the Lord is telling me we are living in a new era and it’s time to get back to connecting with the saints out there in blogger/reader land.

Has anyone else noticed that the browsing exercise of Facebook is getting old and people are now just looking for things of substance? I guess the mindless activity of funny memes and tagging jokes is a fun past-time, but I’m getting a vibe that the world is different and if I don’t pull my attention back to serious, pertinent things, I will be caught unawares.

You know what I’m talking about. (If you don’t, you aren’t paying attention.)

We are in the end times, folks. Possibly in the beginning of the first half of the Great Tribulation. The stage is being set, the characters are rehearsing their lines. If you’re thinking right now I’m going to jump on the Judging bandwagon, well, it’s your perspective.

Our job, as Christians, isn’t to judge, it’s to extend mercy. Judging is God’s job. But, if my child or friend is playing on the railroad tracks and I see a train coming, I’m gonna say, “Hey! Get out of the way of disaster!” Okay, if it’s my kid I’m just going to grab them. But friends, acquaintances, heck- even enemies-, I’m going to warn: I see disaster looming!

There are plenty of blogs of prophecy and some of them you can tell, through the witness of the Holy Spirit, that they are the very words of the Father. He is a loving God that we are suppose to represent as ambassadors of Christ. Jesus came preaching repentance in love. Then He picked up His cross and gladly gave up His life for us. He is our example. If we aren’t willing to do any of those things, than the love of God isn’t in us. Then we don’t know Him as Master like we should.

In the fall of 2017, the Lord tapped me on the shoulder and said, “What are you doing?” So, okay, not literally, but figuratively. I was so busy, with a job that was helping broken families reunite, so daily I thought I was serving Him, but I noticed I hadn’t written in my journal for almost 6 months. I was shocked! Time was going by so fast! I usually journal everything and every time I felt Him moving in my life! There was nothing there! I have stacks and stacks of journals, that have evolved over time into legible confirmations of His presence with me and suddenly, poof! Nothing.

Immediately I started writing. I wrote anything and everything I was thinking about Him. Then He began a process in me that started in October of 2018 and has not stopped since, of sanctification, dreams, visions, like I’ve never experienced before. Something happened in His world last year and I was humbled and blessed that He wanted me to share it with Him.

I will share those things here for anyone who cares to hear of them. I’ll share them any way because it’s a log of what He did to draw me back to a living relationship, and not just one of word and deed. I have always been a Professing Christian, but He showed me there are those in word and deed and then there are THOSE who LIVE it. I want to live it.

P.S. I just moved for the last time but am getting settled enough, hopefully, to have the time to share these awesome things on a regular basis. Forgive me, though, if life or the Lord Jesus has a change of plans.

Love, Lisa

Big and Small, Yes and No

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IMG_20140928_110221512I have prayed for lots of things over the years. I’ve prayed my son’s brain tumor was benign (it was). I’ve prayed that my children get saved (they did). I’ve prayed that God would bless us as we moved across country without a job, stepping out in faith (He did.) And I’ve prayed for many things in between. God has always been faithful.

Garth Brooks thanks God (sometimes) for unanswered prayers. I’m a little different in that I always want an answer; I want to know Yes or No. When I pray, I ask the Holy Spirit to tell me, Yes or No, when I ask, “Is this something I should be praying for?” If I ‘feel’ He is saying No, then I stop asking for it. Then I usually want to know why! I’m a little bit stubborn. And human.

Here’s what I do on the Yes things (there are big Yes things and small Yes things):

When I ask for small Yes things, I’ll ask and then say, “Thank you, I’ll be waiting over here.” I ‘know’ God has heard me and He is working on it.

But on the BIG Yes things, I’ll thank Him and then check back pretty regularly to be sure He heard me. I don’t know if that prolongs the answer but I think it does. There isn’t big and small prayers with God, except He knows what is big and small to us. So the length of time to answer may depend on our reaction to getting what we want.

What I mean is, since we were babies, we would cry for what we wanted. The more we wanted it, the harder we would cry. If someone else had it, we wanted to take it from them. Again, human.

So when we ask for the moon, or a great job, or a Christian spouse, etc., you gotta know it’s going to take a while. (Not saying He can’t drop it in your lap, just in my experience, we have to toil in our spirit for such important things.) I think He is making sure we are ready for such an important thing. Are we too selfish for it? Will we really appreciate it?

So, my waiting for the answers to the big things has been painful. Painful in my flesh. Maybe I’m just really impatient (yes, I am stubborn and impatient) but I hate waiting. However, I’ve come to learn the pain that is in the waiting is the killing off of my flesh so that I can be more like Jesus when I get that big thing I’ve been praying for.

One last note: Have you ever noticed it’s when you stop worrying and asking and are finally ‘okay’ in your spirit about it that the answer usually comes?  Or is that just me?

 

Casting: But not for Fish

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We get so busy.

I was walking my little dog Tinker the other morning (I walk her 3x a day so I can get away from my work-at-home desk), and about halfway through I realized it was a really beautiful day! The sun was shining among a few puffy clouds, birds were chirping in a light breeze… one of those glorious days that could have easily been missed.Mhd 5-21-2010 Mom 084

I don’t know about you, but when the world is spinning like its supposed to, I toil away breathing an occasional, “Thank you, Lord,” and don’t really stop to enjoy the ease.

Now, when the day is hard and crazy and hectic and troublesome, I say, “Help me, Lord!” and only focus on the burdens I am under.

When my daughter was a teenager she would say, “I can’t stop worrying about…” and she would list off things that were bothering her. I wrote out the infamous Matthew 6:34 verse: “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own,” and hung it on the frig door as a reminder. She said it helped her.

But then she thought about it and said, “Ok, so troubles will always be there…hmmm…” and that gave her cause to worry. So I wrote 1 Peter 5:7: “Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.” She started to get the picture.

Worrying is a part of life. We can’t stop. We were made to worry and to care about our lives, our families, our jobs, and on and on. Sometimes we say, “I don’t care.” But to be honest, we really do if it involves a matter of the heart. Christ’s followers can’t NOT care.

Spring and summer are my favorite seasons and it really ticks me off when I wake up and its fall and I realize I didn’t get many chances to enjoy the sunny, breezy, bird-chirping days. At my age you’d think I’d have learned.

So, once again, I’m going to make a conscious effort to not worry so much, take longer walks on the beautiful days, and cast my cares on Him.

 

Helping yourself, Helping others, Helping God

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You’ve heard it said, “God helps those who help themselves.” Does this mean that if you work hard enough God will help you? Or if you help yourself first, you will be blessed?

I guess this sentiment never resonated with me. My mother always taught me if we help others or think of others first, then God will bless us. God is not selfish, He is selfless. That’s why He sent His Son to die on the cross – to show us how selfless He is.

I wonder if the nobility of helping yourself came about because people wanted to convince friends or family to stop being lazy or mooching off others. Paul says in 2 Thessalonians 3:10 (NKJV), “For even when we were with you, we commanded you this: If anyone will not work, neither shall he eat.” This he wrote among the brethren working together for the sake of the gospel.

What if your friend or family member is not with you on your spiritual beliefs? Should we then tell them to get lost or get a job? Even though we may want to, we are to do everything in love and not begrudgingly: 2 Corinthians 9:7 (NIV), “Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.”

It should be noted, however, that when we give we are being stewards of God’s money. I believe I have an income because God wanted it so. We’ve all been at a point in our life where we’ve lacked, too, and our provision is His decision to bless.

It is for this reason that we, as professing Christians, should portray grace in our giving. Grace was given when we didn’t deserve it, and was given freely in abundant measure. I like to think of it this way: “Grace helps those who can’t help themselves.”

So how do we balance enabling versus cheerful giving when approached with a need?

  • Pray first – We don’t have to give an answer immediately. Let the person know, if being pressed for an answer, that you need to find out if you are able. Then go to Jesus and ask Him to impress on you whether or not this is a wise use of His money.
  • Give immediately and cheerfully – If you feel in your heart God is telling you, “Yes”, remember Proverbs 3:28 (NKJV), “Do not say to your neighbor, ‘Go, and come back, and tomorrow I will give it,” when you have it with you.’ “

God’s grace is sufficient for us, for His strength is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). When others are asking out of a need, we may very well be participating in the dispensing of His grace.